Xmas time

It is time to cheer up, finally the 2006 with all his darksides is ready to finish, ending a truely confuased period, at least for me. On the other hand it's time to suggest a few songs to change the normal christmas playlist:

Queen - Thank God it's Christmas
The Darkness - Christmas Time
John Lennon - Happy Christmas

This is it, just a few tips to have massive fun for Xmas. I iwsh to you all the best, I'll be in Madrid for holidays, if anyone will pass by, drop definitely to say hi. See you when Santa goes on vacation ;P

Wanna Play

I need to play some basketball.
I definitely do.

Hangover

I woke up a few minutes ago with the head up my butt, an amazing way to start a new day correctly. It was a cool party yesterday, people were nice and the wine kept flowing like a stream. It didn't happen often after Brussels to have such crazy nights. That's why this hangover really leaves me happy, not anger and incapable of thought like always.

In general I have no particular news, normally old people say "no news, good news" but that's just for them 'cause they're not looking for a job as I am and surely it reads "I didn't die...YET!"

It is bothering staying at home all day, I need to focus on something. And I don't like people getting mad for nothing, especially when they shout and kick objects on the ground. Cheers

Dazed and Confused

Real mess...my head doesn't respond good to this unbalanced period of time, and suffers lack of direction. I do have to find something to work on.
Nevertheless, I feel shitty, I'm always cold, winter wheater depresses me very much. I hope everyone is doing alright.
These days I've been reading a biography of John Belushi, and his charachter is impressive for his thickness as an actor bonded to his weakness in dealing with drugs. I felt sad about him.
Rest in peace John

Looking for a job

I'm looking for a job to avoid this desperation of being at home doing nothing. I can't waste these months on computer games whatsoever (I underline it because for World of Warcraft it might be even worthy), and even though I'm studying how to play my new wonderful trumpet, things I have to do are really few.
I'm writing now after a boring roman night, like the ones it happens too often ti live. There was an interesting program, Jeff Mills was playing @ Brancaleone, but it was sold out. Then we tried somewhere else to dance a little but there was a gay night expensive and unacceptably glamourous. So tired and depressed we crashed in a sort of lounge bar...how sad.
I hate fucking roman nights. People really look boring and selfish, it's not easy at all to get to know somebody. In Rome if you meet someone new is because you're introduced to them, not because you met them somewhere accidentally. This really freaks me out, especially if you think I met my girlfriend at the metro stop. I feel lonely in Rome, it looks to me it's damn hard to get to know people. Everyone has their friends and that's it, groups are rigid. Hope things will change someday, or I will move definitely somewhere else for good.
Cheers

D.O.C.

It's with extreme happiness that I announce my graduation with top grade and special mention of the commission, after these months of hard work. I thought I deserved a little vacation so I spent a week in Madrid with my beautiful love, that's also why I didn't notice first about what happened. Now I'm back in Rome in the awful renovations of the house and a lot of free time. I have to get done a few things in a hurry since there's not much time to forward the application for LSE. In the meantime I'm enjoying the party that follows the graduation, the fact that people are calling me Doc., and surely my regained freedom (even though it scares me a little that for the first time in I don't know how many years I get up in the morning with nothing to do). Take care godsons waiting for further words to come, I shit you not.

Discussion

Discussion tomorrow.

The strategy chosen follows:

The lonely hero against bad guys.

Time for words ended...FIGHT!

Rock 'n Roll

Band rearshal
(Photo by Gianmarcolodi --> flickr.com)

Saturday night at home

Yesterday it was a normal saturday here in Rome, except maybe for the unusual cold that came from one day to the other, and for once since a long time I stayed in. I wasn't at all into going out so I watched a movie with a glass of wine, played a little with wonderful computer game of Star Wars, and went to bed after reading a little. It was good, I definitely needed to rest (as a proof I woke up at noon today). It is unlikely to hear from me staying home, especially on weekends, but I'm starting to realize I haven't rest in a long time. Since summer 2004 I have had almost no vacation, I've always been doing stuff, I've worked etc... In the end my brain, more than mt body, needs a time off. That is why it is probably for the best that until xmas I'll be finally free. To say that it doesn't mean at all that I'll be unconscious on my bed watching the celing...but of course I'll take my rythm, or better I'll chill, to use a current expression. Only a few days to go.

Megalomania

Rainy afternoon in Rome, no chance to go play whatever outside...I just thought a little of God and his miterious ways, which I not only don't comprehend, but also don't approve. Anyway I want to give a little tip speaking about God's methods:

Megalomania - Muse - Origin of Simmetry - 2001

Feel like

Graduation

Finally the calendar for thesis' discussion has been published and I'll be up on Nov 15th in the afternoon. The date sound actually cool, I have a little more time to prepare, but the commission is tough. Besides my professor and Pangallo's, two economists, there are two law professors, for reasons still unknown, which are by the way the dean and his assitent. This causes a few problems concerning in first place the discussion itself since I would have wanted to speak about econ stuff graduating in political economy, and in addiction that now I'll have to study the menutia about regional law. To give a perception about how shitty it would be, imagine that to know all the reforms done in the repubblican history would be like counting all Mike Jagger's shags... On the other hand I do believe the presence of the dean might produce some sort of political gerarchic tension between professors which I'd avoid in order to get the best grade.
Well, it's pretty much everything I had to say, further info will come.

Madrid Days

Dinner at Silvia's (from the left: Nele, Marco, Silvia, Gerardo, Andrea)










Family picture








Risitas y su cuñaoooooo http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JS5CzhclM9Q&mode=related&search= (to find similarities)

This is more or less the sum of what happened in Madrid last week, the best detail could be described as follows:
I miss you and I'll be back soon, it's a promise...

Fly Away

It's been horrible weeks since I disconnected the brain the last time. Except for that solar shaking soul mood I had a few days ago, it was just working on and on, I need to ricover, so following the advice of Lenny, I'll fly away to Madrid, to find confort in loved arms.
When I'll be back the same shit will be waiting me but yet I'll be better prepared to face it. I only have a few weeks left before graduating (if the professor doesn't get crazy in the meaentime) and then I'll finally be free, it should be a relief even though now it scares a little. Can you imagine after all this endless working, from one day to the other it comes the great nothing. I find it scary, but don't worry, I'll spend a few days watching the ceiling anyway.
I'll write something when I'll get back from Madrid.

Life on the run

Solar Shaking Soul

It's such a good day today, I don't know why I woke up in an excellent mood. I went out early in the morning for the bookshop. I took my time while picking the one I wanted to buy. The sn was high but it was a chilly morning. When I wa back I watched a movie and ate. It's been a cooled, relaxed morning. For a few hours in a long time I haven't had any anxiety on my mind. I made great projects, as usual, I thought of the future but in a dreaming not-oppressive way.
From time to time it do happen to find ourselves in a peaceful activity state. It happen to me today and let me suggest to give it a shot, it's like rehab.
Take care

King George

Yesterday I saw King George, a good camrade, whose ideas about politics I really liked. Especially the vision of secret plots in Italy to subdue democracy that were made in the past. It was extremely interesting to discuss with him.
There are people from the past you never forget completely. Anyway, this conversations punctured me to restart reading and questioning, not that I forgot how to do it, simply working on the thesis almost 24 hours it has been difficult not to leave a bit aside this passion for italian repubblican history I have always had. But I'll make up to it.
Thank you King George

...write and rewrite

Rain, clouds and bad mood arrived now in Rome. It looks like autumn finally got here even though there might be a little bit more of sun in the next weeks I'm afraid this is the wheather we will have until next year. It refelcts a lot on my personal esprit, I really am influenced by grey.
Today I spoke with the professor as usual, who said my october will be to "write and rewrite" which sounds outstandingly awesome. But anyway I'll get it done. There are good news on the birghtside, I'll be going to Madrid a few days in october which will steal me from work but will recharge my batteries that are frankly a bit down.
Last saturday I needed so badly to unplug from these studying sessions I have that I drank until I was totally shitfaced...it was fun, I threw up in a very discrete manner, not bothering anyone at the party and that was the proof Erasmus trained me to do something (at least). However it was a good time, I saw a lot of people I hadn't been together in years, we chat, drank and chilled.
It was also the occasion to spend some time with a friend I really miss from the old days, someone who has always had a particular space and importance in my universe. It looks like he still has it.

Basketball

I love playing basketball...
It's a weird week, I work lighter, especially because I don't have the strenght anymore, and I live more. Saying "I live more" I evidently not mean that I found a way to stretch days in oreder to gain a few hours, I refer to the number of things done in one day.
Anyway, I'd like to spend a few words on the Pope's standings about Islam he took about a week ago. I do think that someone who always wants (and obtains) to be a political reference, should act with a political behaviour, like politicians are trained to do (or are supposed to be).
For the first time in history a Pope has rephrased. He said "sorry guys, but maybe you didn't read me correctly". I was a bit astonished, I'm quite used to hear politicians do that, but frankly I couldn't imagine the Pope to review his positions.
Anyway I hope everyone is fine, I can't really get in touch with all of you, at first I thought a lot of people just didn't know about the new blog, then I realized there was a preference who wouldn't let not memebers to leave comments, so now I know that some of you might have tried with no success. How sad. I hope lots and lots more of godsons will reach the godfather's house. Cheers

September rain

It's rainy in Rome, it's been two shitty days wheaterly speaking...anyway I kept working as usual, hoping my bloody relator won't make stories monday morning as he is quite too much used to do these days. I've been planning a lot lately for my future, if projects will become realities I'll tell about 'em, but for now they occupy the field of "dreams" so I'll keep them for myself.
It's becoming harder and harder to keep in touch with everyone, especially FUBIS guys. Now you're finally in Europe but I really don't have the chance to come and visit, at least for the moment. But we'll have our chances.
I'm looking forward to have more to write and discuss, for now I'm deeply sorry toremark that I'm fucking boring, doing only work and not having great subjects of conversation.
Take Care

Desperate

Jeez, I need a vacation...
I'm working hard for the last effort to complete the thesis, even though my professor shows some resistences. It's really hard when people don't aknowledge your work, it seems really easy for them to direct and give orders when it takes more than a smile for you to achieve results.
Anyway I'm a little disgusted by a lot of small things, mostly part of the past, that are in addiction the reasons why being in Rome is so hard. I'm bored here, I feel strongly the sensation to have wasted a lot of time in the past and I need to believe the best is yet to come. I have great plans, maybe dreams, but on that I'll try as hard as I can...I will leave this damned city and country, one way or another.
On the other hand evenings are quite happily spent these days, I hang out with nice people (which I need in order to avoid becoming crazy), and have good time.
I hope everyone is enjoying what they're doing,

hugs

Paying a debt

It was a long time ago when I first wanted to publish these words. I never had the chance and now finally I'll turn them public. they tell a little about me and a little about everyone around me. Best secrets and joys I'll only tell later, for now let's make it up to you, I'm really sorry...

First days of august 2006:
"It's been almost a month, I know. I'm in Brussels, having fun, enjoying life feeling really good vibrations...but unfortunately not able to have an internet connection in my place so after a number of attempts in some really dirty paki call centers i finally succeed in writing a couple of words for y'all. I'm working hard for the thesis, meeting old and new friends, rebuilding bridges of friendship between Italy and Belgium. The work proceeds slow and full of obstacles but I should be able to get it done within the deadline.
I called my brother yesterday, with the family spread all over the world it's important to keep in touch with everyone. He seemed happy and excited for this thing he started. I envy him in a way because when I had the chance to do it (by the way he's doing his fourth year of high school in the US) I didn't.
Anyway, in less than two weeks I'm back in my hometown once again, I think I'll never get used to goodbyes and coming backs. Sometimes I'd like to be more a jerk, not so passionate about people and places. It really tears you apart to leave someone knowing there's not much of a chance to see each other again. On the other hand I feel like living everyday like it's the last one, saving every breath I take for how emotional it is.
It's been an healthy time though. I'm playing basketball almost every day, I'm eating good stuff, I mean healthy stuff, lots of vegetables, and I finally changed my drinking habits, since until the end of erasmus it really was too much...
I miss people, my people. I spoke to Miquel a couple of days ago and there's maybe a tiny chance to get together, with Silvia as well, back in Rome before he starts working. Gerardo apparently works hard and doesn't have time for coming, on the other hand he is in sweet company so...I cheer fo that. Shay told me he's planning his German semester, Alix should be right now with Omer and Kyle in Texas and she became a taunt! No news of Joao and Arne who should be still in Portugal and China. Diego is in Barcelona, I spoke a little with him yesterday, he seemed happy. As for the gentle american guys met in Munich a couple of weeks ago, I'm still regretting not to have met you here in BXL, it's such a shame, especially because I'm not sure about coming soon to LA :(
Pablo, Luis and Alejandro are still in Brussels, haven't met them yet though. Jarco and Agueda left not too much ago for Spain before leaving to California where they'll spend the next academic year.
And I think that's pretty much makin'it up to date.
I think a lot of you all, people mentioned here, and people I'm not that much (or anymore) in touch with, the reflects of this year of madness on me are impressive and if it did any good it's all thanks to you. I hope someday we'll find a way to spend the time of a beer together, as we once did. I miss you, I love you, I hug you.
Take care, I'll try to do the same"

New Space, New Life

Here we are again all together in peace. The godfather needed to change environment to keep writing so we moved. Hope the same people coming there will come here, I'll try to keep it up to date as much as possible.
cheers