About to leave again.

Here I am describing the newest anxiety pre-departure. It's been nine months here in Rome, and it was time for me to leave again. Since when I came back from Brussels, my life has taken so many turns.
I don't know if in this year I consider in conclusion I have changed as much as I did during the Erasmus one (or maybe didn't change at all...) but I do believe I understood a few things.
Some of them are definitely positive, such as the belief I have now in chances and opportunities, whose cycle is continuous and never stops. Some bad things I realized is that your past can kill you if you let it. Forgetting, hiding, regretting are dangerous things as well as living of evanescent memories of the past. Apparently things are like a wheel that never stops.



Reading above it might look I converted to Buddhism in the end...who knows, maybe one day I might spend my energies in meditation only. For the moment I am in a big rush to complete all the stuff for the journey. I don't want to speak about California yet, I thought that one week before leaving it was right to write sort of a balance of the last months.