Mood for a Day

It is tough for me not to feel down and out these days. There has been a concentration of bad vibe around me that I sincerely have a hard time to keep the optimistic engine going.
I've been rejected from LSE, which can appear a calculated failure to whom knows me best. And in the end it is so, I don't claim any injustice or feel unlucky, simply I played my chance on the hardest odd and came up short. Shit happens they say. What really hurts it's the complete lack of direction I have know, meaning that I don't even know what to hope for the years to come. I know swing between different hypotesis, not knowing where to go. The prospective of staying in Rome is hard, not only for my desire of starting an independent life, possibly in fairer country, but especially since what I would study here appears incredibly stupid and useless.The road that leads abroad is complicated, economically and pratically.
Following others you never arrive first, but you may not arrive. I now have to consider all sides of my situation in the next weeks and figure out what's best for me. It is certain that the great expectations I had were unaccurate. I do not own, at least right now, a good starting point.
I'll try, even if it costs me a lot, to end up like I did the other day meaning it:
The best is yet to come.